Hoping I wouldn’t be sad

In the ideal world within my head and heart, I would be boarding a plane tomorrow morning to continue my journey of love I have racing the Xterra off-road triathlon series. This is Worlds. I qualified in May and worked all summer and part of fall in an effort to go and show myself what I am capable of in this rigorous sport I have become so addicted to. Instead I am home trying to put my body and life back together. I know there will be other races. But still. Being real. I am very sad right now.